To the one and only,Eve

I have the audacity that after all the new moons and all the sunlights seen,to publish a series of letters dedicated to my good friend Eve. I've watched her grow through the years and finally she confided me her most precious secret, she shared these little pieces of her heart and now i'm sharing it with you. Because such love story should be read over and over to give us hope, because such perfected love exist and some humans have the blessing of living it. Here is the third letter , stay tuned for the others.

Salomee.

Nice to meet you my old love

"I’m still in the last shock the series of events called life has given me. It’s too good to be true. Or is it? How long is it gonna take for me to believe it? Not much, I do now. I believe. I believe I’ve found what I had been missing in a while, all of my life. Somebody not afraid of saying what she felt, what she had had growing inside. That, and the fact that it grew in both of us at the same time. But how to get close to her without hurting her? That’s one. What to say now? That’s two. Do I look good enough for her? That’s three (and I think I never will). Surprise, surprise, she didn’t care, she had seen you before, just a little before than you, and now you’re hooked by the heart. And hey, who said it was bad? I think I am. O I deserve her? Such open love, such free poetry, such enchanting eyes, such comfort in her presence and in her hands, and such a nice butt?! I deserve a slap in the face, but if she gives it to me, I won’t wash that side of my face never again. God has seen me pray and plead, God has seen me prepare myself for giving myself whole to someone willing to do the same. I thought  I’d never found her. Now it’s too good to be true, and I thank God I can believe in Him, and in Her.”

Verses to Eve: Two

Watch her go

“See her walk, and see her pass by my side. Watch me inhale what I can of her essence, her perfume, her body scent. Have I taken a piece of her being? Has she notice a piece of my being wants to take her? Does it? Confusion has always been a curse for us the wicked, us sinners us deep lovers.: You should love with your head” they say, but I  ask, will I place her head on my head when I want to show her how my heart pumps in her presence rather than in my chest? I make too much questions. But who’s to answer? She? And if she wonders the same on another HE? Where will I be left? Back, with a rapid pumping heart, a crazy head, a lot of unanswered questions, and a dream to ask God for? Has He noticed this son of His? Has He noticed the missing point Adam needed as well; in me? Has He seen me call her Eve without words? Has He seen me sleep in the warmth of her eyes for a fraction of a breath, mine’s? Then He knows how the breath of life he placed in me and all needs her spirit as well, for me to be her and for her to be me, and for us to get lost in each other, or for me to end the dream, and take the reality as death."

Verses to Eve: One

                                                                               

Ode To My Dear

"What's a 7-year-older to receive?

Just few knowledge; and a teepee.

He won't get more in planet Hoth,

Besides, here, they all hate clothes.

I've had my toys; I had a drum,

Lots of deceptions; and freaked love,

I had a pet, of little use

I had a dream, and it was you.

My 15^th Gift, was such a waste

I didn’t get anything, but mom had pearls

At 17, I can rest laid,

‘Cause I have you, my perfect girl.

I had looked for my gift myself

Under tables, and then in church

Sometimes a ball, sometimes were shoes

Sometimes were crickets, or dropouts of school.

And what’s the sense in all this?

That my search wasn’t in need

My gift came walking to my personal pit

And took me as hers, so now I’m she’s.

And now I’m joyful, without complaint,

And she’s so gorgeous and perfect ways

And know I love her, and she does me

This is all forever, this all my dream.

My rhyme sucks for the critics here

Because of little music, and orthography

But I feel all this, so my care is low

‘Cause I have my gift, cause I have my dream, a real true love."

Anger

It was just a dream, my dream. I was the only one dreaming of us, i was the one that  fed a mirage.  I was crazy enought to loved for both . You closed the door for me long time ago, and i kept pushing for it to open when it was me who you never wanted. How stupid my brain ,to believe that our time was transcendent above earth and  superb until eternity. 

My only  confort is that i was brave enough to loved you. Limitless, regardless and completely.  All this anger that i thought would never dissapear has evolved into aceptance. I think it's more than enough: 15 springs with 15 rainy seasons that would never passed 15 winters. Not angry anymore, not desparate anymore, just soothed and ready to get into the train.

Just when i believed that time had took his course and took away with sand everything i wanted, i realized that it was never ment to be. I was angry now  i'm on fire. What  i want is above you capability of love and that's why the anger  dissapeared and fire claimed ownership of my heart. You can't touch me no more.

Have a safe landing.


Salomée ♥!

Moving on

This post will be short.

The scenario was set last night. I had to test the waters and prove to  myself that i was done. I would like to say that i didn't succeed and i felt my heart breaking in a million pieces when i saw IT but for your misfortune i didn't feel at all as i expected. Last night rehearsal was a success, the same as i was to you when you decided to try different. I thought i had to endure you, but it turned out that it was you who had to endure me.

No more Damn Love, it's more like blessing amnesia and glorifying silence.

Salomée

Damn you Love

Damn you Love, because every year passes and is the same reminder.  There's some one here that gives a Shit still.  I seem to forget many things,  hurtful things, disappointing things but this day never passes by without making me feel miserable  While you celebrate love, i teared out my heart. It's like i will never let go and yes i wish you were here, every  day  i wish you were here.

Time passes and in the velvet room the spring will never arrive, everything is intact; untouched only waiting for you to make the move and choose us instead of settling with less. Love, It doesn't matter what you've built before, you have to understand that we belong without explanations or forcing a situations or making you choose.

We belong.

I hope this day will go fast. It hurts to love you like this love. Until next time, tomorrow twelve moons will pass for me and i will lock the room and reopen it  again when you appear at my side.

Miss you like Crazy,

Salomée ♥!

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Wanting

I want to change my name and  reborn into a different skin. I want a second chance, i need a new window and some fresh air comming from a different horizon. I want not to need you,  i want me more, i want to love my heart. My soul needs a new house and  brand new feet to fly. I want to open my  eyes to a new day and fullfill reality with my dreams. I want to erase, i need to live in amnesia, i need to swim in  the seas of " never happend" and direct my compass to a new island: brand new begginings. I want to turn every "NO" into wonderfull YESes.  I want my heart to find no limitations and have the blessing of smiling to life.

I want to write a new page, i need to focus in it. I want to forget my past and only live for my futute, this isn't enough. I want to fight, i do not want to surrender. I will keep fighting until the last day of breath in me. I will not rest untill happines had being conquered. I want  to heal completely, i want the scars to disappear. I want my world to be different, i want my world to be fill of what matters instead of the unnecessary. I will make the difference, i want to. I will make it happened instead of wishing for it.

Salomée