Freedom

Something new is building up in my heart, something I recognize from a long time ago but I left a side to go chasing ghosts, monsters and fairytales. In the process I left her behind and chose illusion instead of my reality. Why was I so unconsidered? Why I neglected myself to go find happiness in others when the key was to be true to myself and the right one would come along?

Something came knocking my door and I decided to open and without pretend nor false hope I’m accepting this change. A change of lifestyle that doesn´t include my selfish ways nor my constant desire to think for a second that I can be god. A change of paradigm, a chase of new skills, a compromise with fulfillment happiness. My body is aching from the pain of how ignorant I’ve been all these years, how negligent I’ve been with the temple I was confide. A temple that is not mine but yet it´s my responsibility to care and to treasure for Someone that it´s above me yet that loves me unconditionally.

Something feels different in my way of thinking now; Something has awakened my heart and now the past isn´t that important anymore. Suddenly, I have encounter myself walking towards peace and complete surrender of my sense of control, my eagerness of having it my way or nothing at all, I’ve encounter the way of humility and today I’m deciding to walk free towards a Higher Power, towards God´s ways instead of mines because all of mines have failed and if I’m here standing it´s because of His mercy and grace.

 

 

Something isn´t good for me anymore and something unknown to my heart is the path to complete happiness. I don´t know when the work of His hands will be done with me, the only thing I know is that I have opened the door, I’m taking His hands, I’m surrendering my will to Him and going forward my life will be different.

 

 

Salomée.

The unspoken words

I could´t resist. I tried but didn´t succeed.Seeing you trying to keep your posture ,distance and fighting yourself for not to walk my way and hug me. That´s all it would have taken, a simple hug;It was all i wanted from you. A ``I missed you terribly`` hug.

Seeing you left me confused, like if a part of me stayed behind in an island. Why didn´t i dare to clame you when i had the chance, when we were young and free. Why i limited myself to only dream about you and never talked to you about love.The problem was that at the time you were looking for perfection, a moldable heart that you could rebuilt to of what you thought it was perfection.

And now, that the years have passed,perfection isn´t fun anymore. Perfection is overwhelming, it´s not your happiness. It makes you wondered now, why instead of going for the moldable you would have chosen the fierceless , the untammed to make your days fully intense?

I wanted to write so much things in my message but there´s no point now. So, all i could barely say  to you was: It was nice to see you even if it was from a far.

Salomée

2001

 2001 reasons why to smile... We have reached 2001 viewers and we´re happy to have you joining us through the journey of life.

Sending you all LOVE from the South!

Salomée

The gift

...And I know you want to give me the world but the world isn´t what I need. You want to cover my skin with flowers and paint your roots in my heart but this still not what i want. I know you wish to cover me with diamonds and plant your scent in my hours but i still ache for something more. Do you see love, that no matter how much you try , you won´t win ? 

I want something that doesn´t have a price tag nor cost you money, I want something that is the motor pumping your body, I want you  to break free and release it throught  my deepest channel until a miracle breaths up to surface making my life complete. The actual prove that our love existed, the tangible walking love that will fulfill my days even after you´re gone, even after I disappear from earth. Can you give this, love? Can you hunt my desires until the last space on earth until you grant me this? Can you give your last breath for this? Are you willing?

Each day that passes is a sentence, a constant reminder that i don´t have what I want and that the gray days will cover my hair until I’m gone without tasting that kind of happiness, the ultimate one. The one we were all meant and built for.

And I know that you love me, that I’m your world but I want us to share this world, one that only belongs to us, one that was conceived by us , one that will grow with us, one that would have our heritage. Can you give this? Can you wrap this in a round shaped box for me? This is the only thing I can´t do on my own, this is the only thing where two hearts need to melt into one and breath as one. Can you see now what I need? Can you see what I’m missing? I’m missing that part of you that needs to bond with mine and make the miracle of life. Can you see now that normal gifts  aren´t going to make the cut??