I'm fine, thanks!

Sure, i've been enduring and passing by in life little by little.Guess what: Today i feel great!

The sensation of despair it's on vacation today, lately it doesn't matter what was going on. My brain is busy with other things i want to accomplish. I guess that's how we deal with pain, replacing it with other worries and concentrating in other issues to solve of bigger importance.

I'm fine, thanks!

Sure, it hurt and was sofocating me, thought it was my end.The truth is, it was but i'm recovering. Enduring something helps our inner growth. Our peace is shaked but we'll be able to recover. Missing it, what was lost, only sets a record of never forgetting what made us who we are. Because we'll never forget but we shouldn't treasured the unworthy.

I'm fine ,thanks!

Day by day, owning my heart and giving it to the right one.

I'm fine,Thanks!

Salomée

The Johnny Walker move

- I'm nervous.-I said to my heart.

Heart: Why? It's just a visit, you'll be thousands of miles away.

-It doesn't matter,I'll be longing for no reason but at the end of
The day: Longing!!!

Heart: There's no reason darling to, you'll be fine.
You'll heal and this would be nothing but a bad joke to us.

-I want to forget, I want peace, I want the suffering to stop!

Heart: Child, it will. I thought it was going to be the end of us
But we'll be fine. You say you want to forget everything, does that mean Good and bad? Be careful!

- I want the bad to go away, but the good it's hunting me down. Once you've taste the

Sweet venom you can't conceive existence without it. So, the good needs to be forgotten too.

Heart: I see, it's more complicated than what I thought. But we can't drag his ass for too long! I'm tired.

-Me too, it's enough!!!...do you think he longs too?

Heart: Honestly, no. In theory, Yes. I don't know and this is what It's killing you right?

-Yes!!

Heart: Well you have to options: stay stucked or play the "johnny Walker" move!

-Huh?

Heart: keep walking ma' frien'



















Salomée

Build Faith

Build faith, it isn't something that you would obtain as a gift without running after it every day. It's a long walk on the park with the right company, trusting them with the eyes closed that you would get secure to a destiny unknown to you. How hard it's to trust  today, imagine having faith. It's much better setting our faith towards something higher than wasting our energy with merely mortals that could sweep our hearts. But without Faith in ourselves, in others, how can we believe God?

Build Faith, it's our save path to the upcomming future. Breathing air when you're sofocating, smiling to the so wanted victory while you cry the failure. Viewing the price of the championship when you're empty handed. Walking the mile towards success while others pass over you when you're stuck in the start line. Contemplating the sea, palm trees,cool summer breeze sensing that the house in the beach is finished when you're sitting in the empty field.

Build Faith, providing assurance in your heart that the storm may last the entire night but in the morning the sun would shine.

Getting faith isn't easy but if we search for it everyday, little by little it will grow as an endless tree.

Salomée

Today i choose Love

Today i choose Love.

I let go from the self conscience and forget once and for all.

No more you, more me.

Today i choose Love.
Smile instead regret.
Journey instead of past.

Today i choose Love.

I've been asking for a miracle, thank you for granting the space.

Gratefull for feeling so free.

Today i choose Love.

No more

 fighting with destiny.

No more ignorance.

Today i choose Love.

Walking foward instead of stopping.

Enjoying today's sun.

Today i choose Love.

Filling spaces that doesn't deserve to be empty.

Breathing new air for the first time.

Today i choose Love.

Today i give me a chance to do things right,

Today is mine.

Samoée

Dreamed phone call

Last night I heard your voice: it was clear, it made me smile, and it made me wonder how it was possible. Last night we talked, no arguments just relief of hearing each other. It took me a while to understand it was  a dream, but either way I was smiling and not grieving anymore:

-Last night we were happy, do you understand? Only in a dream and that was it.- I cried.

Him: We cannot keep doing this to ourselves. I need to go, please let me go.

-You left already, remember? I wasn’t able to stop you. You left me but last night we talked, it wasn’t about us, it was just a talk that I can’t remember in details. We just talked and were happy to hear each other. That was all  I  just wanted you to know.

Him: I can’t do this anymore, I don’t want to see you ever again. I want to forget everything.

-Relax , I know. I’m dealing with that my own way. But “there’s no rest for the wicked”, that’s why I keep thinking of  us. I go to sleep every night wondering when would it stop but now, is not enough knowing that you exist on top off that I hear you in my dreams. Frankly, that is some twisted black magic you’re using.

Him: What are you talking about? I’m not doing anything....
 (troubled voice)
...For the record, I hear you in my sleep too, I dream vividly with us, I’m struggling to move on. That’s why I had to leave you. We are better apart than together. That’s our reality , Sal.

(Resignation)

-I know, we tried “together” and  “separate” we’re better people. But why I insist on been infatuated with this mirage of us? I insist on seeing you again, I insist in us and I’m so tired of being the only one fighting for us.

Him: Stop that! Stop fighting for us, stop fighting for something that doesn’t exist that never existed. Our time passed, I don’t want you!!! You don’t understand it!

-Don’t get upset darling, I understand. It’s your rejection that causes my confusion and my indecision of letting go. You see, I have a theory: “I don’t like it when I can’t have it.” I don’t like sharing what’s mine.

Him: What are you talking about? And you say I’m Mr. Ego? I’m not yours, I walked away from you, I used you, the last thing I am right now it’s yours. I’m trying to be happy most important trying to make others happy.

-Then why  we  could never  looked  each other and just act normal, why there was  always a mystery between us, why we looked the other way when we were  in the same room, why did you call me that day  and told me all of those things? Why you chose someone else?

Him: You too, chose someone else! Remember? You made me leave, I asked you to change, to be the person I fall for. You refused to do it, you said good bye and later expected I came back and make me suffer it all over again!! No, I couldn’t.

-I begged you to come back, I asked God forgiveness for loosing you! but  you didn’t give me chance to prove it!! You stupid prick, I loved you. In what language should I break it down to you??

Him: I don’t love you anymore, Sal

-I know, but I’m having a hard time accepting it. Just let me enjoy the fact that last night I dreamed we talked and  we both felt happy on hearing each other. Let me enjoy my illusion.

Him: If you keep doing that you’re going to get it wrong again. If I would’ve want you I would’ve fought for you, I would’ve got the guts to get you.

-Yes, you're right. It hurts to hear the truth, but I needed to hear does words before when   the damage could’ve been avoided. (sigh)
 Never mind, you’re still in denial. At this point, is useless;  it’s over ,I understand now that I need to stop talking to you in my dreams. I end up disappointed here too. This isn’t a good sign, these conversations are over. You killed the moment.

Him: Fine, I can finally go to sleep again.

-Silence.

Salomée

Lovers

Make me stay and give me one good reason not to walk away from this.

Dear lover,

I don’t want to fall for a dream. I’m struggling hard enough to remain still, just enjoying this unexpected happiness that came to me in a time of horror. I know the rules, I know balance must  be kept and there’re limits that must be respected. The sensation, the desire, the smile, the touch, the eyes, the lips, the skin wants more and don’t seems to be satisfy. You offered a new perspective, drove all my senses insane and after that day I can’t live without it, is my only drug.

Dear lover,

I know my part in this play, I know that this won’t go beyond my wildest dreams, I know that the so-called happiness eventually will vanish and another decade will separate our souls; Yes, this is about souls, it isn’t about hearts. The heart is tricky, it changes, it’s capable of creating all kinds of illusions, it could change the cards in any second. The soul is constant, it keeps the good memories, it keeps the same smile that so long ago captivated my eyes. I haven’t given you my heart; my soul refuses to be displaced.

Dear lover,

I don’t care if it won’t last ,I don’t care you go away , if you would turn your back from this , denying it for as long as you live, I don’t care if I’m ignored and you would say this was a mistake. I don’t care you would never change you’re world for mine, I’m not expecting you would.

Dear lover,

My comfort is to have you between my lips for less than a second.

Make me beg to your hands so they would take me to a mesmerizing journey in this wonderland I've chosen to be for as long as you let me.

Dear lover,

Are you thinking of me while you play the guitar and taste  my essence in your tongue? Are you wishing for my flesh instead of anyone else? Are you wanting to be inside of me right now?

Dear lover,

I’m here for as long as it takes, I’m yours until you want me to be. I’ll want the end the beginning all over again.

Dear lover,

Make  me yours, which is the only thing that matters.

Salomée.

Sunrise

T he sun is down and i'm waiting for you to turn,i guess i'll be waiting for a while untill your blindness sets you free. I don't love you: I miss you. i'm not expecting a miracle, i just want a second chance, i just want to share a moment that would only belong to us while we dream at night. Be honest, how much you miss me?

 

I can't wait forever, soon i wont be near you, there's too much to tell you but you don't want to comunicate. I will only wait until sunrise!

 

Salomée

Fact 3

These life lessons are getting under my skin; why i need to explain the world my existance? let me just exist.
This hot breeze is getting my lungs worried that they won't survive another decade without; why i care so much about it? let me just forget and never forgive, noone it's at foult.
Once again, she comes around when i'm about to quit she interrupts my intentions:

-Thinking again? -she asked.

-No, worried!

- You trouble for no reason, you need to start caring about your present. Haven't you learn anything yet. You don't matter, then he doesn't matter. So, move on!-She yelled

-I'm just trying to understand what was the purpose?

-You don't need to understand, you don't need to love too much. Stop now or you'll keep crying.-She finished me.

♥!

Fact 2

I wonder how two temperatures could co-exist in the heart.
Making the exact moves ,to leave confusion and despair. I had to

ask her, things that I wouldn't understand or see, that sadly I

had to learn from my mistakes and from her sufferings. My mother,

The voice that conquers my fears:

-Love and hate? I asked

-No,love and ignorance! She answered.

-Why ignorance? I replied.

-Because hate is a maximized feeling of love, so deep routed that it hurts

 when absent that the heart decides to purge it  over and over with anger.

-And again,ignorance? I insisted.

-Ignorance is beyond love, is numbness served in the sour plate of

Pure amnesia, it's like you never did or have existed.

-So, you're saying that I'm being Ignored? I asked her.

-No,you've been forgoten!

♥!

Fact 1

It has been raining the past few days and I’ve heard that it's sunny over there. The things that distnace covers only time it’s able to understand. I've been in denial since I found out that rainbows can't connect worlds, I’ve been waiting in the deck of the closest shore for the rain to splash my feet and take me to the unknown. My scars no longer exist, I have conquer insanity and transcended into the sky of the present time. The noise and the potent voice you implanted in my heart is now muted by silence, indulgence, careless breeze and the smile in my non “missing you” lips.

I gave you the space so you could be and later return. I remember what my mom told me the day you left:

-Let him go, if he comes back he was always yours but if he doesn’t he never was.
-Mom, I don’t want to wait!-I said.

-You don’t have a choice. He’s leaving you with no choice.

Time consumed the days, stole the years and you returned to leave me in completely numbness.

-Mom, he returned….. and left. What’s the speech now?- I asked ,demanding.

-He never deserved you.

♥!