Eyes Closed

I once read that I needed to "look my surroundings with my eyes closed in order to see what my mind creates”. That thought has grown deep, fast, wide and submerged enough to a point of my reality. Life would be easier if we could only imagine it, if  we could only recreate it.... wait a minute, we actually  can, we actually do. Is hard for some of us, we're never satisfied and the real reason is because, we that imagine always want more. We have seen with our eyes that we can achieve much more, that settling won't make the cut, that this is fine but our world can be greater, that we cannot be a afraid of changing. With our eyes closed is the only time we can actually understand God's capability of creating new worlds. However, our creation is a reflection of wishful thinking, is full of mistakes making along the way and those mistakes give us the opportunities of recreating and  changing paths again. Does this means that we never settle? That we can't find peace once and for all? Good questions, can anyone honestly answer that?

I once read that i needed to "look my surroundings with my eyes closed in order to see what my mind creates". This means that we should never stop dreaming, that it's the only prove of our existence. Right now i'm creating a world that's helping me to discovering myself, to answer simple questions like,  how to define parameters, to circle maturity the right way, to accept and what not to accept, to leave  behind my own path. 

I certainly will live with my eyes closed.

Salomee.

Seven Minutes

Life and all it'ss games have brought me to this conclusion: Where I stand at this right spot, is the place designed for me to occupy. A temporary place that I can change at any time and find myself searching a different happiness.  

The big question is: Why change it? Easy answer: Because we can. Then I have another one hitting me hard: What if the perfect place for me was found, decided to change it and suddenly I’m now looking to go back? Not an easy answer there: too bad, because you can’t.

Life, only one shot at it and you have to work hard to make it count. I’ve been  wandering and wondering about the mysteries, about  my confusions, my mistakes, my winnings, my war, my heart, my true love and the end  to  the speech is this: It’s all Vanity, pure incorrigibly and irreverent Vanity. Because what matters isn’t what we lived nor what we will get, what matters is this spot where I am and the desire to stay or to change it. Then I smile and know the answer to this: “I’m staying and you’re going to love me”. Loving me just   like this: wrecked, troubled, complicated and within all of it absolutely perfect. Perfect for you.  And you perfect for me.

Life is what I need right now and it’s all I will need every day, because in the end in seven minutes I will walk on what I lived and the things that made me happy or sad. That short time is the only thing I would need to rest at peace knowing I lived life to the fullest and was happy.

Enjoying this spot and staying.

Sal!

Weekend

It was a great week!

I had a chance to smile, to breathe, to count my blessings and to stay high on life. I can breathe again, love  the sunsets and enjoy the new experience. Enjoy to hear different people´s accents, it´s like the change of scenary had given me the steady sense i needed and it´s  intoxicating good. Getting life together feels like happiness isn´t a mirage, feels right.

Enjoying the rain with a wide smile.


Sal!

New year without THAT!

My unwanted-erased past that likes to walk into my mind every time he pleases. 

A new year has arrived and it’s being 17 days of this new beginning, I intend to excel and live fully  for the next 348 moons without my past. If you’re awaiting a New Year’s resolution from me, this is what you get: I have no intention of going nor looking back.

My eyes are no longer set on what I left behind because bottom line is that if I left it, if my heart decided to leave was  because THAT wasn’t meant for me, THAT wasn’t enough, THAT wasn’t what my soul needed, THAT isn’t here anymore because it wasn’t brave  enough to fight  for me, it was unworthy.

I decided to move to another country and start form zero, let’s see how the year ends.

Sal!

Freedom

Something new is building up in my heart, something I recognize from a long time ago but I left a side to go chasing ghosts, monsters and fairytales. In the process I left her behind and chose illusion instead of my reality. Why was I so unconsidered? Why I neglected myself to go find happiness in others when the key was to be true to myself and the right one would come along?

Something came knocking my door and I decided to open and without pretend nor false hope I’m accepting this change. A change of lifestyle that doesn´t include my selfish ways nor my constant desire to think for a second that I can be god. A change of paradigm, a chase of new skills, a compromise with fulfillment happiness. My body is aching from the pain of how ignorant I’ve been all these years, how negligent I’ve been with the temple I was confide. A temple that is not mine but yet it´s my responsibility to care and to treasure for Someone that it´s above me yet that loves me unconditionally.

Something feels different in my way of thinking now; Something has awakened my heart and now the past isn´t that important anymore. Suddenly, I have encounter myself walking towards peace and complete surrender of my sense of control, my eagerness of having it my way or nothing at all, I’ve encounter the way of humility and today I’m deciding to walk free towards a Higher Power, towards God´s ways instead of mines because all of mines have failed and if I’m here standing it´s because of His mercy and grace.

 

 

Something isn´t good for me anymore and something unknown to my heart is the path to complete happiness. I don´t know when the work of His hands will be done with me, the only thing I know is that I have opened the door, I’m taking His hands, I’m surrendering my will to Him and going forward my life will be different.

 

 

Salomée.

The unspoken words

I could´t resist. I tried but didn´t succeed.Seeing you trying to keep your posture ,distance and fighting yourself for not to walk my way and hug me. That´s all it would have taken, a simple hug;It was all i wanted from you. A ``I missed you terribly`` hug.

Seeing you left me confused, like if a part of me stayed behind in an island. Why didn´t i dare to clame you when i had the chance, when we were young and free. Why i limited myself to only dream about you and never talked to you about love.The problem was that at the time you were looking for perfection, a moldable heart that you could rebuilt to of what you thought it was perfection.

And now, that the years have passed,perfection isn´t fun anymore. Perfection is overwhelming, it´s not your happiness. It makes you wondered now, why instead of going for the moldable you would have chosen the fierceless , the untammed to make your days fully intense?

I wanted to write so much things in my message but there´s no point now. So, all i could barely say  to you was: It was nice to see you even if it was from a far.

Salomée

2001

 2001 reasons why to smile... We have reached 2001 viewers and we´re happy to have you joining us through the journey of life.

Sending you all LOVE from the South!

Salomée