Without shields

I stopped believing in myself  and the capacities i was granted with therefore everyone else did as well.
I stopped loving ``me`` first and caring for my wounds in order to move forward therefore i stood still without  escaping away from my past.
I stopped taking care of myself , the growth stopped therefore everyone else around me stopped growing.
I stopped living...
I stopped breathing...
I stopped having  faith and strenght in what i can do...
I stopped wanting more and i settle, damn why did i settle knowing that i deserved more.
This death stops today. This agony shall not be more. This , all of it it´s beneath me and i shall start looking at it with contempt.Because the life that i invisioned is the life i want to be living, there´s no room for weakness nor breakable feelings. I will no longer be two different women, i will no longer have two names. It´s all me and i will take me the way i am  and everyone else shall do the same or simply leave.
I don´t need i shield any more, this is me.Nice to meet you.

Salomee.

The future will build upon

Living the life i dreamed without what my soul needs, knowing that i will never be complete , knowing that there´s something missing, knowing i´m missing a piece, my better one. Living the life i invisioned in my mind without having my heart following, breathing distance and sadness hidden between (i´m ok laughters), walking under the sun with cold under my skin, whispering the unnamed.

Living the life that i don´t deserve without...Telling the story to myself  over and over so would finally believe the lies, the hole, the emptiness. My call, my decision, my results, my consequences.Knowing that letting go it´s my only choice now, knowing that there´s no turning back and that  i must keep walking...alone, without.

Living the life i chose, wanting to go back and change lots of things but here i stand unaffraid to say ``i´m sorry, i wish it was all  different`` but now moving forward is the only way for me according to you. I don´t feel brave anymore, i just feel soothed and calmed because i opened the door, i dared and i did it. I Loved completely without reserv and, i was loved at a certain time and now i can walk free knowing that.

Living, indicating that it´s time to write new stories and as the days pass the future will build upon.

Willing,

Ivy.

"Take A Bow"

I wanted to share and oldie that never gets old just because at some point it´s relevant in our lives and it´s appropiate. Enjoy lovers!
Ivy♠!

"Take A Bow"

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
(There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd)
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around (no one around)
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
(One lonely star you don't know who you are)

[Chorus:]

I've always been in love with you (always with you)
I guess you've always known it's true (you know it's true)
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart (breaking my heart)
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
(Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown)
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played (role that you played)
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
(One lonely star and you don't know who you are)

[chorus, repeat]

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye

All the world is a stage (world is a stage)
And everyone has their part (has their part)
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
(You'd break, you'd break, you'd break)
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
(I've always been in love with you)
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

[chorus]

Say good-bye (bye bye), say good-bye
Say good-bye

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDeiovnCv1o&list=PLE370C7DA3CC966EB